Another year ends

As 2014 comes to an end, I can’t help but look back on this year. In more ways than one it’s been tough. I was unemployed, I moved back home with a challenge of reconnecting with old friends and making new ones, I went through heart break and I lost my uncle. It’s been a year that for these personal reasons that I look forward to starting 2015. Bigger events have also been happening around the world; Journalists being beheaded, terrorist attacks all over, ferries sinking and catching on fire, 2 missing planes, and 1 shot down- just to name a few. With the recent Air Asia plane crashing into the Java Sea, there will be 162 families that will start their year in mourning- my heart goes out to all of you.

Each year has tragedies and each year we all say we can’t wait for the year to end and to start again. I think that part of the problem is that we forget the good things that have happened and our mind focuses on the bad.  I am not saying that we should forget, but rather try and see some positives to help us get through the bad.

In my year of challenges, there were some happy memories made, and it wasn’t all terrible. I have to admit though that I wasn’t expecting it to go as it went. Now, as 2015 approaches us in a few hours, I do feel like I wasted a year. I didn’t achieve what I wanted to and my resolutions were never fulfilled. I have every intention for 2015 to make this year about me and to stop focusing on silly small things and trying to make other people happy. I am going to stop expecting so much of others in every aspect because I always end up disappointed. I am going to focus on my writing and my career as this needs to be my year. This is the year that I will prove to myself that the path I have chosen was right for me and there are better things for me out there.  I am going to do more of the things I love to do and I am going to start singing and acting again.

I feel that I went to sleep on the morning of 2014 and woke up and it was New Years Eve again; that this year was all a dream. Time is so precious and it’s too short to waste it. I close my chapter on 2014, as an individual who is a tiny speck in this world, and open up a new page tomorrow in a new light. I want bigger and better things for myself.

“Just because you fail once, it doesn’t mean you are going to fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself because if you don’t, then who will? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling because life’s a beautiful thing and there is so much to smile about” - Marilyn Monroe